one broken flower

one broken flower

a new home between pages

your color changes

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(my first attempt at a haiku : )

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you rescued a flower from the ground

so that it wouldn't get run over

and gave it to me, it was so sweet.

a broken flower

to mend my broken spirit.

i kept twirling it rapidly between my fingers,

the energy must have been coming

from all that i was feeling that day

and it seems that we healed each other

because it lifted my spirits, i was feeling better

and this flower found a new home in my memories

and this moment

will always bring a smile to my face.

thank you mary.

i remain still, thinking

surrounded by that which i feel
will drown me



i
remain
still,
thinking


spinning from one feeling to another
leaves me dizzy

i
remain
still,
thinking




thinking of why, where, when it will happen for me
i am cautious and i am reckless
fully conscious
i have never tested these waters
only jumped the waves
staying where it's shallow
where it's safe

as i look down at your deep waters
i realize i have no other choice
but to dive as steep as i can go

towards you and all the feelings it can bring
as far as my heart can take it
as close as you will let me
swimming inside all that promises to
save me or break me

fear keeps me frozen
love forces me to take the leap

the treasure that i will
find underneath
i have a key that i hope
will unlock it for me

i close my eyes
take a deep breath
and count to three

i am swimming in a vast array of emotions.
      i feel free.
       i feel locked.
           i feel happy.
            i feel sad.
panic overwhelms me
as i realize
i don't know how to swim.

lets face the music

dancing is a very intimate way of expressing yourself with someone and i'm usually a little shy to do so with a stranger but on those days when i'm able to feel uninhibited, the experience is amazing and i especially love to be spinned! :)

i love to watch professional ballroom dancers, it's so sensual.
i took these pictures when i apparently needed better lighting,
perhaps a flash or to be standing at a different place.
still i love the captured movements of this couple
dancing tango.

we share the same sky

(click image for better viewing ;)

young spirits

i was looking through my negatives of past photo shoots and found some of these photographs i had taken of my friends babies. here is a set of each of them; one in where they are sharing a moment with me and another one in where they exist in their own world.

"we are living art" - maya angelou

i didn't find a coin that day

some whole days or plenty of hours or for a few minutes
blue is just my favorite color, the sky, the water
and green is your favorite color, the trees, the grass


and i exist in a world
where you and i are possible
and sitting next to you is where i'm found
listening attentively to discover more of you
and every thought you say seems to soothe
the empty spaces of me
and now this place will mean something more
than just beautiful scenery.

but some whole days or plenty of hours or for a few minutes
blue is how i feel and all i see is black and white
and i'm searching desperately for gray


and i exist in a world
where all i have are stolen moments
and stolen words and if we strip away all the feelings
and just look at where you are
and where i'm standing and how it's still too far
it becomes very hard to enjoy what is good in front of me
because i'm still thinking of how it's not enough.

but i'm still reaching out for you
and i have to believe that you are too
and i need your help to see me through
in this race of time, of chance, of circumstance
i'm battling my highs and lows
i'm nervously awaiting to see
who will make the finish line first
my limitations or you
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i'm fighting because i want to know
what really makes you smile on the inside
and what makes you laugh out loud
and what it is that you find in me that doesn't
let you go

and even though i didn't find a coin that day
to toss into the water
i knew that where i stood there have been
many wishes made



i'll
make
a
wish
for
you



and
hope
that
it
comes
true









and many have come true.
i was standing next to you
and so that day was my living proof.