surrounded by that which i feel
will drown me
spinning from one feeling to another
leaves me dizzy
thinking of why, where, when it will happen for me
i am cautious and i am reckless
i have never tested these waters
only jumped the waves
staying where it's shallow
where it's safe
as i look down at your deep waters
i realize i have no other choice
but to dive as steep as i can go
towards you and all the feelings it can bring
as far as my heart can take it
as close as you will let me
swimming inside all that promises to
save me or break me
fear keeps me frozen
love forces me to take the leap
the treasure that i will
i have a key that i hope
will unlock it for me
i close my eyes
take a deep breath
and count to three
i am swimming in a vast array of emotions.
i feel free.
i feel locked.
i feel happy.
i feel sad.
panic overwhelms me
as i realize
i don't know how to swim.